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Journal Entry: Wed Sep 28, 2011, 1:31 AM


I announce a new kiriban - catch my 644 444 pageviews and send me a printscreen as a proof via note to gain a feature! :nod: it is not that close, but it might come very soon ;)

Nah, I am in very bad mood. My dad offered me, that I can teach him and his colleague English. It would be a nice part-time job, which would give me enough money for ZOO trips. I was a bit shy about it, as I did not have enough self-confidence to accept it, as I did not know if my English is good enough. My father was angry that I refused it and for weeks, he kept talking about it, that I am unwilling to earn easy money and so. But then TVD-Photography came to my country and I somehow did not have problems to use English (heh, I hope so, Dani - I know I made many mistakes, but I think you could understand me, right?). Also my cousin Marek and his girlfriend Tereza encouraged me to take this form of part-time job. They both said that my English is good enough.
So I got a little more self-confidence, I got home and told my father, that I can give him and his colleague some English lessons.
My father immediately told me, that he does not want me to do so, that it would make him feel uncomfortable.
I just gazed at him with disbelief and my mom did too.
My dad then said, that he never asked me for any lessons for him and his colleage, and that it was surely an idea of my mom.
But only two weeks ago, when there was a family birthday party, he asked my cousin for English lessons for money and he also asked Tereza to provide him and his colleages those lessons, when ,,Woxys does not want to take this fantastic chance to earn some money".
So not only he made me feel like a crap, he even lied to me without any shame. He used this offer only to speak about it for WEEKS, being angry with me. Obviously, this offer was never real, it just served as a chance for reproaching.

Haha. I know why he does not want me to take it. He is an employee of a design company - there are all those tv-like sexy young fresh cool people around him. He wants to be a part of them. He did not have any problem when he provided very well-paid part-time job for my sister, as she is very pretty, young, blonde and slim. That did not make him feel uncomfortable, heh. I do not look attractive at all, he does not want his colleagues to see me. Now I really feel like a piece of a shit :no:

I will also probably not get to Nuremberg. Nah. I am just angry, because my parents always speak about a possibily to go there - and they always refuse to go there when it is already 10 PM, so I can not take a bus. OMG, why do not they just say, that they do NOT want to go at all?
It is crazy - if I go alone by BUS, I finally pay almost 2 000 Czech crowns.
If whole our family went by our family car, the same price would be for trip of four persons! :(
But no, they rather go biking. Biking, biking, biking. No new trip, just biking every weekend, every free day. Nah.

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Asagi-K-Kurosaki Featured By Owner Dec 17, 2011  Professional Writer
I know how you feel, my dad does stuff like that to me too =_=
aprecio Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2011
6th one is my favourite this time.
purplepixie88 Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
Your dad kinda sounds like an ass. I'm sorry he's treating you like that. And I'm sorry you won't get to go to Nuremburg. I hope things look up for you soon. :hug:
panda69680102 Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Don't be down. I hope everything gets better. My dad has always seemed to think less of me because I am neither his oldest, (he favors my sister) and my reproductive organs are in the wrong location. (I was supposed to be a boy and he definitely wants more to do with my brother than either myself or my sister.) I have lived in their shadows as the middle child all of my life. It isn't fair, but I have learned to live with it. I just look at it this way he is the one that is loosing out not me. I treat both of my kids equally and I do the same with my step-daughter.

Beautiful photos as always.
KIARAsART Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2011  Professional General Artist
The prideful fox is so sweet!
The being said. What is wrong with your dad?! Sorry, but first of you are his daughter. Even IF you would be the hunchback of Notre-dam he would have to protect you from feeling bad. BUT as I can remember we saw a picture of you some when and you are not err 'unsexy' or anything!! Don't you think so!! Really, I am disappointed from your dad. Best is, you tell him how that made you feel. Then he hopefully will recognize his bad behaviour.

I'll go to Nürnberg next week with my department of biology education. I'll dedicate dolphin shots to you.

Now, smile and lift your head up. :hug:
Evetsu Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2011
Your father sounds like my sister's future father-in-law... it's best if I keep my comments to myself about him as a person, but I wish you the best.
VampireNerd13 Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Aww, That's horrible D: I'm sure your dad didn't mean to make you feel bad, he probably just wasn't thinking...?

Gret pictures, as always :D
GottaLoveMushrooms Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2011
Aw, I'm very sorry about that. I hope you can tell him how you feel, and that he will understand and apologize (though I'm sure many other people commented telling you the same things :P). I definitely think your English is very fluent, and it's in fact hard to tell that it isn't your first language, so I'm sorry he set you up like that :no:
I hope you feel better. :hug:
FefaGriffin Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm pretty sure you are beautiful! On your own way, but, yes, you are! =) And your english is better than maaaaany americans I know!! Go, woxys, go!! =D

And the wolf HAHAHAHA
K9Creator Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2011  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I feel so bad for you! :( He was prrobably mad at you for declining, and after a few weeks forgot about it...

I love the cheetah and the wolf though! :D
olgolugo Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
I perfectly understand you :XD: well don't be angry :nod: everything will be better than expected, i promise. :)
just don't do decisions by your mood :yum: because things will be no good :hmm:

So calm down, and earn some money to make us happy =D
XxSephalxX Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2011  Student General Artist
RaiDoodles Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm going to have to agree with Saffyminty on this one! Your dad is probably just butthurt by the fact that his offer got rejected. And in turn, he's saying all these stupid things just to hurt YOU in return which is just WRONG.

Please oh please do not take what he's saying to heart, Woxys! You are a lovely person inside and out and he should be jealous that he does not have you teaching him and his colleague English. Hold your head high! It's a skill that he does not have, unfortunately.

And your pictures are fantastic as usual! I love the stretching wolf. Reminds me of my dog. Haha! :) She often stretches over different things too; her balls, her bones, etc.
woxys Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2011
no, believe me - he is not that sensitive :no:
thank you for nice words :hug:
RaiDoodles Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You never truly know. And you're welcome! :hug:
1secretaccount Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2011
I dont think what your dad said was right, he should have been more nice about it.
But I also dont think your reason why is right either. You are his daughter no matter what you look like and he will always love you. It may not seem like it now, but deep down it is true.
woxys Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2011
he does love me, but at the same time, I am really absolutely sure he does not want his colleagues to see me :(
Eve-Rebil Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2011  Student Traditional Artist
Offer basic lessons in English yourself :) Your English is certainly good enough (probably better) to do basic conversation (Greetings, colors, clothing descriptors, that sort of stuff). Plus I've heard that teaching something makes you understand it even better :happybounce:
On that thought, is "nah" an expression of annoyance in your language? In English (at least in America) we use it to express apathy, like "Nah, I don't think I'll do my homework" or "Nah I'm not that upset". When we are annoyed we usually say "arg" or "gah!". Or swear I suppose.
Just curious, languages are so interesting :D
Lovely candid shots as always!
IamETOH Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2011  Hobbyist Photographer
Outstanding pictures like always, and I hope you get to travel to the zoo. :aww:
EmmaOxo Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2011
This might make your day it made my [link]
:iconfmlplz: :iconftwplz:
Squeakybauble Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2011
You type good english, speaking I don't know. never heard you talk. But by the LOOKS of it, you are doing just fine. Wox, keep your head up. Who knows, maybe one day you'll get called on for something better than what your father could ever offer you. I see a lot of people here talking about "revenge" That ain't the way to go. Like I said, keep your head up. You may not be the "best looking person" but you know what, neither am I. You have an awesome talent, Woxy, and by the looks of it, an amazing personality. Don't let your father get you down, just smile at him. Smiling always makes people wonder what you are thinking. :) Big Hugs to you.
spiritwinned Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2011
I'm so sorry! Your dad/parents should never do that to you! If they don't mean what they say, they shouldn't say it. :(
KaraNari Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
My father is EXACTLY like that, but a bit more selfish. I feel really bad for you because sometimes personalities like that are restricting. :( For example, my parents never EVER tried to help me when I wanted to go to university, and I was 2 years out, I really wanted to go. So my boyfriend helped me and we are now going to school together. My parents haven't paid for anything, I paid all by myself, and now in my second year, I am still paying. I worked all summer to save, and when I came back to school this year my parents decided to move away. So I live in canada, and I'm studying in manitoba, my parents are moving to the NWT. So there excuse is that they can't afford to help me when before the summer ended they said they would. Now my dad quit his job because he "can't handle the stress" making even more excuses for my family to not help me, and they even refused initially to sign some papers so I could get a student loan!!

Blah, sorry for my rant, I just feel so bad when people say they will do one thing then do another. No one deserves that! So I hope you can go to Nuremberg one day and speak some crazy english!!! :)

Also, beautiful pictures. :) As usual!
mythril-blackpaw Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'd say your English is better then the English of some people here in the US, seriously
God-like-thing Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2011  Hobbyist Filmographer
Well... you can
1. Learn shitload of English and maybe few more languages and take up a work in some internaitonal company and after many years be like "Hey, dad? The Game! "
2. Go to another extreme, take up heavy bodybuilding, get 22 inch biceps. Show to parents. End of discussions. :D

Oh, wow, this totally reminds me - hot news - our new president barely can speak English (I feel shame. lots of it) :(
UN speech: [link]
he is almost as bad as our infamous Finance Minister: [link]
Internet ridiculed him for that! And that's right!!: [link]
President will be next!
woxys Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2011
2. Go to another extreme, take up heavy bodybuilding, get 22 inch biceps. Show to parents. End of discussions. - :rofl: :rofl: that was good :D

oh, just... some people simply never learn to speak well, although they do their best :(
itadakimasu101 Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2011  Student Traditional Artist
~Puh, Parents suck! I really hope your talking to your close freinds about this kind of thing; I know that listening is what I would do for my close friends if this happened to them (or anything else they wanted 2 talk about). Plus, if I was your close friend I would definately go with you to zoo or where-ever else you wanted to go (just as long as I had the time and money for it (; hehe). And idc what your parents are thinking, but your mom needs to stand up for you and say something, and your dad just needs to keep his mouth shut and be happy for you and be trying 2 encourage you the best he can. (srry that was a bit of a run-on...^_^' ..) I hope that the future will be kinder to you in future events! :heart:
TigerzFanz Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2011  Student Filmographer
Cheetah, fennec fox, some type of fish, meerkat, leopard, a white throated toucan, wolf, and a shark.

Boy you think you got problems. My dad likes to pick on me alot, but he told he would be serious on me. When I think that, I think he's lying.
Jenny2-point-0 Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
that's fucking disgusting. not wanting you to haev the job because you dont look "pretty" enough to be around his work colleagues. he should be ashamed of himself, how the fuck would he likie it if it were the other way around eh? exacly, point proven... im sorry woxy, dont you get down about it please. this kind of shit can eat away aat someone forever, i know is eats away at me atleast... and i woulnd't want you to go through what i am or anything.
and btw when i read your journals there are no mistakes with your english, at all, hell you even spell in english better than i do and i was born and rised here XD so please dont worry about that alright? i think i even througt you were from an english speaking contry when i first watched you 0.o
dandy-cARTastrophe Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2011  Hobbyist Photographer
That was very unfair of him!!! :wtf: If he is disappointed or upset about your initial hesitation to teach him (for all I know, teaching your own parents is a whole lot harder than teaching anybody else) he should at least admit he asked you in the first place!

It's not like you haven't got any witnesses, your mom could testify!!!

I'm really angry right now. I know how people get when they feel in a sulky mood. Once, my boss called me on my phone while my future sister-in-law was sitting next to me; I answered the call, arranged an extra-shift, actually told my sister-in-law about it all; then, the next time I went to work my boss totally denied to have called me and arranged that shift with me!!! :omfg: It was so ridiculous. :sarcasticclap: I was very calm while she was yelling. I said I had proof; my cell phone lists all phone calls received and answered. Plus, I offered to ask my sister-in-law to come there and confirm she had actually witnessed that call!
My boss kept claiming I was bonkers. :rage:

What I 'learned' out of that is that sometimes you have to let people be in a sulky or whichever mood that would be.
Even though it's NOT pleasant and the injustice jumps you in the face. The point is: you won't get these people to admit they asked. You might try, you might fight, yet they will still pretend it has never happened. :ignore:

This leads to my other main point: don't believe he did it cos he loves you less or cos you are in any way less adorable than your sister!
My boss behaved that way towards me and while I'm not exactly looking like a beauty queen either I knew all the time she didn't do it cos she didn't like me. I think she actually did it cos she was deeply disappointed cos she hadn't expected me to be that way. In a twisted way, she felt more hurt than I did.

I don't know your dad well enough but it seems to me that he somehow misunderstood your motives and reasons and was upset about your actions cos he was genuinly worried. He obviously wants you to do well (financially), that's obvious. I admit he doesn't use good strategy to let that worry show.

Don't feel crestfallen, dear. My dad isn't too happy about my job, day-night-rhythms or way of life either and sometimes he has a way of showing it that makes me rather sad than feel loved but I know, deep inside, he just wants the best for me.

I give you a big hug and hope the situation will clear up soon. Maybe he will understand how much he hurt you and apologize?...Who knows. I think even though he might keep pretending he never asked you to teach him, you should at least let him know (or ask your mom to let him know, in case he didn't realize along the way) that he upset you too!!! Then see what he will say to that..Might be worth a try and possibly couldn't hurt even more.

:tighthug: Hang in there, my friend! :blowkiss:
dandy-cARTastrophe Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2011  Hobbyist Photographer
Oh, and I need to make something very clear: your English is definitely 'good enough', no worries!!! :nod:
Dragonmagik Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2011
Wow. That's just petty and shallow and wrong. I can't believe your own father would be like that. I'd slap him for you if I could. :slap:
TVD-Photography Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2011  Professional Photographer
Your English is good enough to teach people basics. Sometimes you just use the wrong tense but not often enough to be a problem.
I love your parents but that sounds too bizarre. Has he been drinking too much Bucak? I can't do the accent on this laptop :(
I'm sure your dad loves you, if he hated you I'm sure I wouldn't have been allowed to visit just to make you upset. Talk to mum I say especially if she knows he did ask you this question :(

I think you might be a bit paranoid? You're not fat and ugly OK :hug:
Pale-Recluse Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2011  Hobbyist Photographer
I agree with TVD. If he had told his coworkers he was going to have you teach then you declined you may have embarrased him at the office so he might be more hurt than you realize. Not that it justifies anything.
Parents are just people with their own flaws, but over a lifetime you should know in your heart if your loved.
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saffyminty Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2011  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Sorry I may not be of much help but...
:( It sounds like your dad may have just got offended when you declined his offer... so now is trying to i don't know um... make you see that you should have accepted right away.
You shouldn't feel self conscious and say that you 'aren't attractive at all' You should not compare yourself to your sister. When I look in the mirror and my sister stands next to me, my eyes always look ugly, small and dull compared to her large rounded bright eyes. But I know for the most part that my eyes aren't really like that, just in comparison to her's they may seem that way!
I hope that your problems sort themselves out, you are a very talented person that is admired by hundreds of people! I'm sure your dad isn't trying to make you feel like a piece of shit and I understand that sometimes we feel that way. But maybe you should just try talking to him or your mum or someone about it that will pass the message and how you feel onto him and then things will work out! :la:
Sorry if I completely misunderstood what you were saying and just rambled on with crap ^^;
Uranus-seventhsun Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2011  Hobbyist
Your dad is a douchebag. Way to make you feel better-NOT! It's bad enough knowing you're plain (not that I know whether it's true in your case) without some so-called loved one shoving it into your face like a bad smell. :hugs:

That shark looks spooked!

Listen to this [link] from Hybrid, it's dark soaring electronic that'll make you feel better.
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