Still alive + foxes in winter - PHOTOS

Hi guys,

hard to believe this is the first journal I publish this year!
I hope your entry to 2016 was all lovely and successful, and I wish you all the best, lot of love, true friendship and only those problems you can overcome (making yourself stronger) for the remaining 8 months!

As for me, I balancing.
You would not believe how hard it is to teach yourself to be more selfish and to push your own feelings, your own needs and attitude instead of always trying to be respectful and nice and understanding to the others. I would never guess it is so difficult to make yourself understand that YOU might not be that 100% guilty person when something does not go well.
But I keep learning and it has both great benefits but also some sad aspects - some people (my aunt for example) seem to have problems to accept this "new Woxys" who is more self-confident, able to express her opinions and feelings more openly and who is also able to say she does not like something.
It is hard, but I like it.

So as usually, there are ups and downs: I really love my job, it is still thrilling, full of adrenaline.
I like my colleagues, I afford myself to believe they might not be laughing at me behind my back, which is something I tend to be nervous about with almost everybody else.
For me it is shocking that they seem to care.
It is not like you are sitting with somebody 8 hours a day and they pay no attention - when I am sad, worried or quiet, they tend to knock on my shoulder and ask "can I help you? You seem to have some personal issue, do you want to discuss it?"
And that is nice
Definitely something I am not used to.
I even had some session with my boss who wanted me to sit with him and he was all like "you are so strange and you hate yourself - omg, why do you do that, there is no reason to be so nervous. How can we as your colleagues help you to make you more self-confident and relaxed?"
Quite cute, heh?

A month ago, I visited Allerlei in Most city, playing with her dog Triss. Although I love animals, I am a bit nervous when dogs are around and I never pet them unless I get permission from their owners, but Triss is all sweet, spoiled and always hungry, so I happy I could feed her with dog snacks, she ate whole bag in few minutes I am also happy to have my good friend Kajusia as my company very often, we go out a lot and we discuss great scale of things and it is so amazing to get some feedback and thoughts from the other side we both afford the luxury to be honest with each other (at least I hope so) and it is incredibly relaxing and somehow healthy. That's exactly the kind of relationship I appreciate

I am still too fragile to try to make friends in Prague - too afraid of bad choice, which would hurt me
Again, most people don't understand this

Sometime I just feel very lonely in Prague two weeks ago, my family (I mean the broader family - aunt, uncle, cousins, grandfather, my family) had a BIG argument and my birthday celebration I was very looking forward to was canceled, so it makes me sad. And while in Brno, rest of my family can discuss it and have at least some contact, I am completely separated in Prague, so it is quite harder for me. I have too much time to think about stuff which is painful or simply stressful for me and that's never good! Also whole this "argument" problem seems to be related to "Woxys now expressing her needs and opinions", so well yeah as there are some other problems with people which are dear to me, I am simply a bit tired, spent and my birthday on Wednesday probably would not be the best day ever.

+ not only this weekend celebration was canceled, I also lost (or it was stolen) my Kindle, which is very devastating for me. I hate it... even if it was my fault, not a theft - how can anybody keep such expensive item when they find it? I would NEVER keep it, I would immediately report it as lost

But well, probably more birthdays will come. Hopefully
So despite some losses and sad moments, I feel much better than in the past.
Which is good.

Maybe those are the problems you need to overcome to become stronger I mentioned in the first paragraph?



And as I know what you guys like (), here come some winter fox photos I took in wonderful Zoo Ohrada Hluboka nad Vltavou. Rain was announced, but finally I decided to go to enjoy fantastic snow burts in completely empty zoo where I was alone with animals I spent only two hours there (and 7 hours with travelling - getting there and back ), as I was FREEZING, but I loved every single minut