Thanks for your support, I feel better now
The bad / sad issue with the stubborn person I love is not fixed, but at least it seems to improve. I am afraid it can never be absolutely ok, which makes me feel sad for that person. You know, you offer a hand, which is refused, while this person wants you to offer a hand, just in a different way, but he refuses to say which way. Mhm. As I say, it brings me down a bit, because this person is sad and I have always done my best to help. The bad thing is, there is no 100% solution. At least it seems to get better and I am grateful for it, although it is kind of difficult to forget some things which have been said and which somehow hurt
As I said, the ZOO visit on Friday made me very happy
to be honest, I came to Brno so tired and hungry, that I joined my family in a restaurant (TVD, you remember Richard, right?
) and ate incredibly big portion of pretty unhealthy food for dinner
but I do not regret, it was delicious and I spent whole day moving
I also talked to Allerlei
again, we chatted for hour and half kajusia
was invited to my flat for lunch and we had a nice time. I must say that when I am separated from my friends for some time, I usually get into some phase which is a BIT close to depresion. I do not feel like doing anything and it is like my head was totally empty, my hands were heavy and such. I just lay and think if they at least miss me. They are both VERY busy persons with difficult school and many activities, so I understand it, but I can not help it, it always gets me to that state. But when it is them contacting me, showing that they still mind me, it always kicks me to activity and better mood
Mhm, my annual ticket for ZOO Brno will expire this week, I am afraid
I think about buying a new one, but I need to consider it. As I am not a student, I would need to pay 600 Czech crowns. Quite a lot
but I will probably pay anyway, because even if I get a job, I will surelly visit this ZOO more than 6 times a year, so it should still work for me. Mhm. It would be easier to pay, if this ZOO did not get worse and worse
I continue with my attempt to lose weight
I got some weight back thanks to my few days of bad mood (god, I spent last weekend in a bed, eating chocolate, because I was so down
), but it is not severe and I will get rid of it again
after I finish this journal, I will exercise and ride a bike again
And finally, I had a doctor day on Wednesday XD
After some TEN years, I finally saw a dentist (well, the dentist saw me, to be precise
). I know, you are supposed to visit your dentist at least once of twice a year. But who would like to go to the dentist, heh?
our neighbour and long time family friend is a teeth doctor, so she offered me a control without even waiting in the waiting room. I was a bit nervous about the result, ten years are ten years... but when I travelled there in her car, I saw a pheasant which is my lucky sign and I relaxed a lot. And the pheasant was right again, my teeth are healthy and I have no problem with them. Yahooo!
As I left her, I travelled to Brno to meet another doctor to sort out a problem, which was a big pain for several months.
With my left eye, I still see some moving black spots. It is very annoying, especially when I am supposed to drive now. Sometimes I felt like saying ,,sorry, instructor, I can not drive, I have some problems with my eye". It did not cover my view, but as the spots are moving, it gave me illlusion of some car or a pedestrian moving on the left. It was not nice at all. And moreover, it was getting worse. And when I found a white spot in my left iris, I got REALLY scared. Everything I do and everything I love is based on my eyes: drawing, chatting, photography, reading... It would be a disaster if I got some damage. So I visited a doctor. During my journey, I saw another pheasant, so I felt better again. The doctor saw me and the diagnosis is, that I have floaters in my eye. It is supposed to be harmless, just annoying. There is no treatment
the doctor says that those floaters usually disappear after some time, but it will probably take several months, so I should wait and be relaxed about it, because now I have been told it is nothing serious. If I know it is not serious, I do not need to focuse on those spots and think about them, so it will help me to cope with them. Well, ok, I will try - it was a good message after all. As you can see, the pheasant prophecy (fav.me/d4t5nju)