At first, allow me to be a bit vain – I got my the third DD
thank you mysterious person for proposing and thank you, JenFruzz
, for such a honorable feature, it made me smile
Apart of DA, my life is quite decent.
A year ago, my parents got crazy and bought a weekend house. At first it made me pretty nervous as they seemed to be so fascinated with the idea that I was afraid they would not be able to consider everything and act reasonably. But it seems that I was fortunately wrong, so they now enjoy complete renovation of this building. It is a very hard work which takes all their time and money, but they are so excited about it that I need to smile. My sister and her boyfriend love it as well, so they spend weekend with demolitions and other crazy stuff. I’ve told my parents that I would not help them – I am completely on my own, living in different city and I need weekends to have some rest. Although sometime they try to claim that I work with my head and physical labor is therefore a good way to relax, they seem to respect I refuse. Which is a fantastic and BIG step ahead in our relationship. Time to time I just accompany them as I have to admit they chose incredibly wonderful natural place – the cottage is large and in a good shape (statics), but what matters to me is the land itself.
It is large and located in the area with many ponds (I’ve always had a soft spot for water critters) and there is a big forest just across the empty public road, literally only 5 meters from the fence. I was told by locals that there are many foxes
my parents’s property is also on a shore of the lake. And what is the most incredible thing? There is even a tiny pond located RIGHT on the property!
it is shallow (up to 80 cm, but I will make it deeper, originally the depth was more than 150 cm), but of reasonable size (13x10 meter) to consider releasing a fish population there! As having a fish pond is one of my life dreams, I think I can maybe pardon my parents for buying whole this stuff and take care of the lake
it would be amazing. Even now the pond is full of life: I have seen various species of frogs, newts (both breed there), there seem to be at least three grass snakes. I once saw them successfully hunting newts and well – it was like Discovery Channel LIVE! My responsibility would be installing a good balance of system, so fish can be there together with amphibians: they usually compete, as tadpoles are often eaten by fish. So I need to create some hiding places (with proper choice of water plants) for frogs, where they can breed. A fish population would be probably regulated by snaked, kingfishers, dragonfly larvae and maybe otters (they have been observed only some 100 meters away).
As the property includes various types of biotopes (high grass, low-cut grass, trees, thick bushes, abandoned shelters), it is a paradise for birds. Just for example, some species which have been already observed on the property or just within meters away: kingfishers, kinglets, crested, great or blue tits, blackbirds (I love those beauties!) + also some squirrels or deer. My parents also immediately installed some nesting boxes in order to attract more
At work, everything seems to be fine: I feel well there and maybe my colleagues like me a bit. There is at least one guy (omg, for the very first time in my life, I’ve found somebody who has the same weird humor as me!
) I would like to befriend, but so far I am too shy
but it would be so cool if we become pals! This year seems to be the “year of solving problems out” for me – not in a bad way! I’ve decided to be simply active and to deal with troubles, to face them, challenge them and solve them out.
So far it pays off so much!
I’ve had some bad feelings about something at my job – so I simply went to my boss, told her about it and it was solved out!
I had some little problem which bothered me as well – so I made a step and my life is so much easier now when I got rid of sad thoughts!
Moreover I am not afraid to call myself stronger and maybe also a bit brave and courageous
the life is simply so much better when you deal with problems instead of allowing them to grow in your head and torture you
The other thing I am learning is allowing myself to take some time when I need to make up my mind + that I am absolutely allowed to say “no”. And there is one thing which is especially hard to learn.
Understanding, that you are not responsible for all bad things.
I used to be that person who thought she is guilty for everything which is going wrong.
Now I am slowly trying to understand that not only the responsibility can be often divided into various parts, but sometime you might be even completely without a guilt, although things got screwed.
You maybe think “what the hell is so difficult about it? Such attitude is just hypocrisy.
I respectfully disagree – in fact, I think it is much more difficult to understand that you are not fully responsible. Because when something goes wrong, you could say “I am the only one to blame, if I work hard, I can fix it!” Once you understand there are more people responsible, you need to accept very difficult fact – that some of them might NOT want to fix it. I have the example right within my family
While the first thing – “solving problems” – might lead to wonderful relief, this understanding that you are not the only responsible person is not positive at all. It is in fact sometime incredibly sad
for example my grandfather seems to terrorize whole the family and you would not trust how a one 86 old man can affect a group of 10 adult people. We still though we might be able to find something which would work for whole family, a solution which would make everybody happy. And still we were sure we as much younger people should be those who are more patient, stronger and willing to help with everything, hoping he would finally understand we really DO like him and we DO care about him. But I am beginning to realize that although we are doing our best, he simply DOES NOT want to accept anything we offer. He wants to be in charge of all particular 10 adult lives, affecting them as much as he wants. Which is indeed something which must be stopped immediately. So sometime you just – with pain in your heart – need to accept that your own dad/grandfather is full of hate, because his own children and grandchildren do very well in their lives and they don’t need his everyday control.
But there are things you need to accept in your life.
And to have a nice happy end – see wonderful wolf pups I shot in zoo Brno.
Wow, after years and years and years, wolves breed again
Just one puppy did not seem very healthy to me, looking weak
I hope it will make it.